EXCELENT POSTS. im thankfull that someone is willing to talk about a bad experiance that happened unexpectedly. i realy pick up a lot reading between the lines, where he says its not the conventional war you'd think. more like attrition, blockade, embargo....and then try to survive with a city full of un-predictable desperate folks, who change and adapt to just survive. the little desicions are as important and dangerous as any, the psycological turmoil is huge...deciding to kill and actualy do it would be easy, deciding you didnt want to kill him after he's dead would be a very altering experiance. i met a few guys who done this, they were very un-caring how reckless they became after awhile. they changed.
i listen to what you say are the money makers for trade, keep food and water staples seperate and hidden. always carry protection and communicate with your group, never go alone. and working deals and tradeing is on the spot learning, {i always look for a seargant of arms, or door man, lookout, to make first contact.} the act of "par-lay", where a group rep initiates willingness to barter and open a phase of co-operation whether bussiness or a mutual agreement. as with military folks, the underground has a chain of command, some have honor amongst thieves, but at the same time you have to always be on guard no matter what. once im inside i dont bother with the foot solder, i look for the captains. i think you have to calculate what you want, how bad, what you can say you have, and any other term in mind. as a practice i try to watch with my perifeal view while im looking at something, heightens awareness. fear is always present, but you can put it on the back burner to acomplish a goal.
a training manual i come accross was dedicated to voice commands, key words and agressive actions to sub-due the psychy, dominate psycologicaly. the initial contact would be quik, un-caring, and decisive. i studied that manual and learned a lot about the extent police forces have. military has same bassis, special agresion training. its best not to challenge in any way these guys.
sounds like im saying everything you did, and i guess i am. i also hear you say dont doubt, dont hesitate, if you think your in danger, you probly are. seems like you realy have to find your own quiet spot, safe place to keep your mind focused. somewhere to sort the negative feelings into survivor instinct. having your guard up 24/7 would be nerve wracking. instantly i see the benefit of being with family. and from what im hearing, its the only way to find a piece of sanity in your down time. i am trying to get all my family into prepping now, iv forwared your link to them as well, its a story worth telling. and learning from.
i have faced life and death, lived on both sides of the fence, and can sit back with my wife and kids now, knowing im in a good place in my heart, i took care of all my doubts and regrets, payed it forward and always support the under-dog. but nothing like SHTF... all rules change, nothing is black and white, but the more i learn from you the more i may be able to recognize some changes.
Vilna Ab. {canada is just over 100 years old, we just got our flag in the 60's, i think we've yet to experiance the situation you speak of}. thanks again for your insight.
